I feel out of place, like everywhere I am I do not belong. Maybe it is
the anxiousness to be married and on our own. Maybe its that I feel
right now that I can't do anything right. Maybe that is not how people
perceive me, but that is how I feel I am being perceived. Does one ever
feel that you're the least important person to some people. I know that
I am important to Stacy and to Elena, but I just feel lost in the
background of this world I'm living in.
I want so badly to be
the best at everything I do, and I try, but I feel like I'm failing at
all of it right now. I want to wedding to be beautiful, I want to be a
good worker and teacher, and I want to love with all of my being, but
right now, it just seems I can't get any of it right.
I know
that I am marrying the man of my dreams and that he will make me the
happiest woman in the world. I just wish I was so certain of everything
else in my life.
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